Making time for my Kids....

It's been a tumultuous two months of rehearsals. I thought to myself, I should be losing some weight, lack of dinner, lots of dancing and singing, on the go....yea....I was wrong!

I decided to spend my days getting work done so that I could spend time with my kids when Landon got home from school. Unfortunately, this puts Zachary in an awkward position as I am always on the go with him. He's been asking to go to "school", so I have been carving out about two hours of my day to take him to the gym, and he loves it! Now, while this may should be a "plus" for me, it's turned into another awkward obsession. As the more I am working out, and literally, "Working my butt off", the more I am becoming obsessed with seeing results and making sure there is a payoff here. So apparently I should've talked to someone before I started this process, because I have basically just bulked up, toned, lost inches but not weight, so while my "butt" is the highest, and tightest it's ever been, and I can finally see definition in my ab area, I still am sitting on that 6 pounds I gained over Christmas. So at this point, how do I lose "weight" without losing everything I have been working for? Well, the trainer told me I have to kick up my workout even more, and add more cardio...great, back to running after each fitness class!!! UGH!!! I was alternating running with classes, but at this point I will have to combine if I don't want to lose the results I've gotten so far....

Those of you that also read Mike's blog, also will know how much is going on in my life right now, between rehearsals every night until about 8:30/9pm, then up in the morning to get Landon ready for school, and the days start all over again. The other morning I took Zachary to the park after our morning workout and he seemed almost lost without Landon, he didn't want to stay much past 20 minutes so we left and came back with Landon later that day.

Speaking of which, yesterday, the poor kid, it was raining out really bad, and I met Mike for lunch, so I said to Mike, let's go pick him up early so I don't have to drive in this alone later...(if you must know, driving in heavy rain, freaks me out, I'd rather drive in a blizzard!)

So, we call to let the principal know, and she informs us Landon's in her office for getting in trouble at recess. She walks him out to Mike and he's hysterical crying! I had to laugh, because I knew what he was thinking..."he got sent home from school! And boy...Dad had to pick me up!"

I tried to hide my chuckles as he's wailing away in the back seat that "he's sorry, and promises to behave, but PLEASE take him back to school!!"

Mike and I decide he's grounded when he gets home, maybe this is a turning point, and we can use this to our advantage!

How do you ground a 5 year old?....easy....tell him no playing in the play room, and no watching his favorite episode of Disney Juniors new Pirate show.... He can have access to whatever is in his room, and books.

So, I thought, this will be an exhausting afternoon, but it worked out great, both boys wanted to take a nap, and then we spent the rest of the afternoon reading books, coloring and making dinner together.

I try to do things like this all the time with the boys, but for some reason the TV and toys trump MOM! So he's forced to spend time with me and he considers me the entertainment....

SO I again try to savor the moment, and realize, tomorrow it's back to normal around here!

Mike gets home from his meeting and I am exhausted so we actually went to bed early, plus I think he's getting sick, and I don't want to chance anything one week out from my show....

So, all in all, it seems the fight to spend time with my kids, it's moments like yesterday that really make all the difference in the world, the moments I treasure, and although it came out of a bad situation, it turned out to be one of the best afternoons I've had with my boys in a long time!

Trying Hard to make amends....

Trying hard to make it work.....

Trying hard to do the right thing....

...say the right thing.....

...think the right thing.....

...tomorrow is Valentine's day and how many of you out there actually boycott Valentine's day?

My husband and I actually gave up on gifts for Valentine's day, then today, he says your "gift is going to be late"..."um...what?" "What happened to no gifts on Valentine's day?" , "well", "he says, "I got you one", but that doesn't mean you have to return the favor"...I mean i did get him a little something! Valentine's day wouldn't be something without a little token! But here I am thinking we are sticking to our guns and then he goes against the grain!

It's life's little loop holes and curve balls like this that keep me on my toes.

Today, I had a horrendous rehearsal! I couldn't remember ANY of my lines! My director was even threatening to take away my lines and I'll be damned if that was going to happen, but I can't blame her, two weeks away, and I am still struggling! Just makes me realize how much harder I need to work, that at the moment THIS is my job!

Don't get mad, just DO it!

So 2 feet of snow, three days of being snowed in, no gym, no driving, no signs of life, then BAM...50 degrees and all of sudden, snow is melting like a hot witch from the wizard of Oz and life had resumed here in NWA!

It's amazing! Two long weeks of being incapacitated, then full range of motion! Slightly odd, and yet exhilarating all a the same time to see 2 feet of snow melt so quickly! Welcoming signs of spring are in the air, but don't let it fool you, for I am sure another winter blast is upon us and will be house ridden once more, before the first Tulip has arisen!

So my show is March 4th, our anniversary, and I am pretty excited, should actually be fun, if I can get it all together!

Let's hope and pray my acting days are still upon me and I can still pull off a decent performance....ah, who am I kidding....we all know the answer to this......

Day3 of Snow day

Ok, its been 3 days of having a snow day. we had an Arkansas Blizzard. about 6 inches and 2 inches of ice. The roads are pretty bad, only because they don't do anything. They sand the roads. This is our second year here and so far it's been pretty bad, and at this point I feel we need to tell someone in politics you need to buy a salt truck and Salt the roads!

I mean, just because it snows, does not mean we need to call a snow day for three days in a row! Just because the town is lazy or have lack of funds and can't have trucks to plow the roads. I mean in trying drive, it's crazy, it's like driving on snow packed roads, literally! Some are plowed, some are snow plowed, and some are just nasty!

Mike went to Amarillo, I neglected to find out he was out of town overnight, I thought he was coming back tonight, yesterday I watched my neighbors kid so it was 3 kids all day. Today, we all met at Chuck E. Cheese. We laughed because in an effort to try and keep these kids busy on dime, it ended up costing us all a small fortune! How is this possible? The whole town has shut down except for three places and these three places are making out like bandits!

I want to invest in a child's play place! This is in fact a money maker. Speaking of which...I have been contemplating opening a restaurant or my performing Arts school, right now, its leaning towards the school. My friend is a fantastic baker, I am trying to figure out how to incorporate how to make drama and croissants work together. The best money maker here, is the following.... A Performing Arts school with a cafe!

So this is my new endeavor. I don't know if it will work, but I am looking in to it, and I will keep you all up to date. I also need a new car, so that is still up for grabs. and we still need a down payment, so that requires some money.

Ok, lastly, I got an application for this pageant for Mrs. Arkansas, its a pageant, that specializes in women that are married with kids, and beautiful, etc. rooting for a charity, and I need to find a charity to sponsor me. The deadline is in two weeks, and I have a photo shoot in a couple of weeks also. But of course I feel because I have gained weight I don't feel so pretty and pageant like! So, all these things are not working for me right now.

I still have my show that I am in, which is wonderful, and I am really happy about, and I interviewed for a job for a church which I am probably turning down do to conflict of interest, so needless to say, I am at a crossroads right now in my life about many things but am feeling optimistic that things really are looking up!

On a positive note, I finally got my business cards and filers in the mail for my Talent company and an email for to start some group lessons, so I feel things are working in my favor.

This week, Has been going good because I have been hanging out with some great friends even though the kids have been home all week, we have been sticking together, and its been fun, so I haven't minded too much! But I am looking forward to Mike being home and possibly a nice warm bath this weekend!

All in all, I just wish Arkansas would get it together and find some salt trucks so we didn't have to drag out the snow days to have the kids home EVERY TIME it snowed!!!!!

Ok, I'm done.....